Being in love with a person makes you weak and strong. Being in love with yourself makes you stronger. Words commented to you, you take it whole it is either you taste it or not. Somehow, it is strange that a stranger can tell how you really are than the person who knew you for life. I may not be perfect … I may be a hypocrite but some principles you just cannot break for life. I do not know how to explain this really, because it is harder than it looks.

Worst comment you can ever get is from yourself because you say who you say you are, but if you cannot up live to it, you are only disappointing yourself. We believe what we want to believe. We may hope but believe in it may not be in our books. It is up to us to believe such things. Look in front of the mirror and ask yourself are you who you say you are? If you are not, then, why bother saying anything, being humble is one thing, being arrogant is another. A remarkable person in your own eyes is the best gift you give yourself, but when a person sees you the same, the greater it becomes. Smile to your widest and enjoy every word you tell yourself. Mere rambling that are empty when read clearly.

Fear is god’s gift to us; to know fear is good. You know what to fear and you know what to do. Patience is god’s punishment for us; to be patient through the worst situations ever seems endless. Where is the finish line to this scenario? My life is full drama I am the actor, co-writer and director. I lead it to a way I wish I did not have to. I am merely human. When we were born, we were gifted with a paintbrush to paint our lives. How do you want it? Black and white or colourful? You could paint in a rainbow if you wish; just to see if you could find a pot of gold at the end of it.

Lately, my life is currently taking up its course. Slowly this life boat of mine is rowing down a river that would bring an adventure to my life. I do hope to find the docks soon to build a new life and move on ahead. Can’t really go on this river for all eternity I need to know where I am headed sooner or later. It might just rain and cause a huge current, must be god’s way to see if my life boat can stay afloat. Well my boat is a bit rocky right now but I am doing my best to steer through the rough waters. I seem to have help in this boat right now.

I have to admit I almost gave up hope in men. I came to a thought that they were all the same. That after one, another would end up being exactly like the last one cause they seem to be judging others so much that they don’t realise they themselves are alike. But him, I believe he is different. I know he is different. I do not wish to be surprised by antics of men again. Anymore I’d probably snap.

My darling, if you ever get a chance to read this. I am so thankful to have you right now in my life. You made everything that seemed so glum just out right bright. I love the fact that you play basketball and love it as much as I do or perhaps more. God knows. I love how you make me laugh; I love how much I fit perfectly in those arms of yours and I love how comfortable to have you in my arms or just around me. Despite the goose bumps. It is actually a new thing for me to be nervous around someone. My darling, you made everyday seem wonderful to a point I don’t wish for it to end. Although it still does, I look forward the new day with you and every other day. Our relationship is an average of 163 days in a day for us, the cookie part, and the quirky part … All so lovely. I keep falling for you every day, no every hour; no every minute; no every second; Ah, bah humbug! I love you endlessly.